I'm still trying to take everything in right now, in my own ways. I'm not really telling a.o. about my experiences, aside from this blog, bc i'm afraid i'm gonna let all my worries and uncertainty spill out. I keep having the urge to call zuluaga, or email him, though, especially the other day when i cried. Butttt, let's just contain it for now and keep hiking up ahead (:
The bad part about ucla, so far, is that it's making me feel really, REALLY self-conscious. My roommates are super nice, but they're super outgoing. They make conversations wherever they went, exchange phone #s, those sorts of things.. and i just want to coddle into my own corner and be very very quiet. I can't help but feel like it's my racial difference - yes, racial - and the nature of my enthusiasm that limit me from socializing with others. So far, on my floor, the majority are white - incredibly tall guys with slender figures and brown hair, who prefer to keep their distance w/ you unless you're another white girl. The girls, too. Though they're more open to talking &saying hi, there's just not much to talk about. I'm getting tired of the usual 'what floor are you on?', 'where are you from?', and 'omg did you do the hw for chem?' It just... didn't seem too sincere... The asian girls on this floor are truly scary - white-washed, make-up, swearing... the whole shebang. I feel PRESSURED to talk to ppl &making friends, it's uncomfortable.
Onto the good parts, my roommates are pretty nice. They went with me to the Bruin Bash tonight &introduced me to their friends (: The Bruin Bash concert was bomb ! The Cataracts opened - lyrics i couldn't listen to very well, but VERY nice beat. E.b. was dancing / shaking to it, it was like a whole audience was a vibrating surface. The Ying Yang Twins followed, which was literally dope, bc they looked like they were on crack and really really nasty. I think s.o. in the audience actually lit some weed; we smelled sth that Kaitlin said was weed. Travie Mccoy was supposedly the best act. He's pretty weirddd, and he performed screamo / hardrock music, but i liked that he was really into his performance. It was real passion, and he as an artist is really... real (= At the end of his performance, he told us all to hug each other; i hugged Kait. "Love is all we need, right?" All in all, musical artists need to stop embedding curse words after every other word ! I don't wanna be called a motherfucker ! All night it has been bleeping this and bleeping that !
The highlight of my day was dinner. I was eating by myself, not knowing / talking to anybody, and it was soo enjoyable ! I had spaghetti and meatballs, which tasted similar to that Angel-hair noodles thing from Cheesecake Factory that i had for dave's 18th, and a plate of salad with French dressing. I didn't even have time to check out the other dishes offered (bc apparently you have to wait forever to get your food at ucla), but it was ... heavenly (= After awhile, some girls asked to sit next to me. Then 2 of them left to join their friends, while the 3rd insisted on sitting w/ me to keep me company. I thought that was such a nice gesture. Makes me <3 UCLA a bit more (= Lisa Ngo, by the way.
The bad part about ucla, so far, is that it's making me feel really, REALLY self-conscious. My roommates are super nice, but they're super outgoing. They make conversations wherever they went, exchange phone #s, those sorts of things.. and i just want to coddle into my own corner and be very very quiet. I can't help but feel like it's my racial difference - yes, racial - and the nature of my enthusiasm that limit me from socializing with others. So far, on my floor, the majority are white - incredibly tall guys with slender figures and brown hair, who prefer to keep their distance w/ you unless you're another white girl. The girls, too. Though they're more open to talking &saying hi, there's just not much to talk about. I'm getting tired of the usual 'what floor are you on?', 'where are you from?', and 'omg did you do the hw for chem?' It just... didn't seem too sincere... The asian girls on this floor are truly scary - white-washed, make-up, swearing... the whole shebang. I feel PRESSURED to talk to ppl &making friends, it's uncomfortable.
Onto the good parts, my roommates are pretty nice. They went with me to the Bruin Bash tonight &introduced me to their friends (: The Bruin Bash concert was bomb ! The Cataracts opened - lyrics i couldn't listen to very well, but VERY nice beat. E.b. was dancing / shaking to it, it was like a whole audience was a vibrating surface. The Ying Yang Twins followed, which was literally dope, bc they looked like they were on crack and really really nasty. I think s.o. in the audience actually lit some weed; we smelled sth that Kaitlin said was weed. Travie Mccoy was supposedly the best act. He's pretty weirddd, and he performed screamo / hardrock music, but i liked that he was really into his performance. It was real passion, and he as an artist is really... real (= At the end of his performance, he told us all to hug each other; i hugged Kait. "Love is all we need, right?" All in all, musical artists need to stop embedding curse words after every other word ! I don't wanna be called a motherfucker ! All night it has been bleeping this and bleeping that !
The highlight of my day was dinner. I was eating by myself, not knowing / talking to anybody, and it was soo enjoyable ! I had spaghetti and meatballs, which tasted similar to that Angel-hair noodles thing from Cheesecake Factory that i had for dave's 18th, and a plate of salad with French dressing. I didn't even have time to check out the other dishes offered (bc apparently you have to wait forever to get your food at ucla), but it was ... heavenly (= After awhile, some girls asked to sit next to me. Then 2 of them left to join their friends, while the 3rd insisted on sitting w/ me to keep me company. I thought that was such a nice gesture. Makes me <3 UCLA a bit more (= Lisa Ngo, by the way.
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